Friday, 6 July 2012

2.1

YES!!!!!! 

YEAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!

WUUUAAAZZAAAHHHH!!!!!

So it has been concluded. The 5 year journey at Imperial College. Not the most pleasant of experiences but surely the most meaningful. 

I guess things paid off. The many nights toiling away in the RT lab, the non-existent 2010 Christmas Break (Comms Systems), the unusual Artificial Intelligence course, mixing of economics and power distribution and most of all.............. developing an insulin dosing algorithm. 

My parents come first for making all this possible and for being the 'propellant' which enabled me to embark on this journey not once..... but twice in a lifetime. Thank you for supporting me both financially and emotionally. I am your son and I am forever in your debt. 

Swan comes next for having waited 5 years for my return. Skepticism was undoubtedly but has been proven wrong all this while. Thank you for being there with me and yes also for the night before your Bukit Tabur hike. I'm sure you expected this night of mine to be a rather restless one :P

My family nonetheless for giving me the support and for always making this country a place which I call home. Yea it ain't perfect but its home for me and that's irreplaceable. 

Friends! YEA! Thanks Will for being that figure which reminded me of my goals and to always stand my ground at times. Not the largest bunch of ppl back in Imperial but I'm grateful for the opportunity and support :)

So yea, that's a wrap for this chapter. Time for a little chilaxing and on to a start of the next chapter.

Until next time ;)

Wednesday, 30 May 2012

DnB

DnB = Drum & Bass

Kinda developed a liking for this genre of music lately. No reason really... but it just grew on me.

Anyways, it's been awhile since my last post. Exam ended a little over a week ago. Decided to stay in the day after my final exam after the brain fry. I think I actually stayed in the next day too. lolz. Talk about being anti-social. It was the final 3rd/4th year exam of the year so I was one of the 3 fourth year student who actually took the subject which makes us the last 3 to finish. 

On a brighter note, I met up with my supervisor 2 days later and we were just discussing about 'things we could do' in the summer term. Basically I've done the bare minimal of the project: i.e. implementing a second wave insulin infusion which was a little shaky at first. I've made 3 new enhancements to this method and the bulk of it SHOULD be pretty much done now....... I hope %-)

Went over to Canary Wharf on Friday to meet up with the usual bunch. Vietnamese was on the menu for dinner and MIB3 just right after that. Oh and some eye candy during dinner as well :P Holy molly. lolz


London has been heating up late. No literally... HEATING up. Kinda miss the winter cold weather a little you can't argue with a little more *ahem... * eye candy once again. Its summer babehhh!! It's funny that the UK seems like a much more lively during the summer compared to the all gloomy winter months. opps no that came our in the wrong context. It should've been the half year gloomy winter period. 

Hi London =.=

Oh HI london :P

Oh and talking about MIB3

Well the movie wasn't great but it was pretty good. J & K has aged quite a bit but man Will Smith is still as lively as ever! As a matter a fact, he was just over at Imperial shooting some hoops with the Britain Olympics team apparently when I was about to sit for my first exam paper this term.

Kinda makes you think how time flies. I've been slagging my @ss here to complete my degree for almost 5 years already! "Won't you miss London?" A question which gets thrown around me a lot. The answer is yes and no. I've had many great memories over here in London which I could've never happened elsewhere. Conversely, having gone through the struggles and deferment of a year has really detriment-ed my self-esteem. It's mainly due to my own self consciousness. Regret is inevitable but more importantly it seems as if I am punishing myself for my past mistakes. Nonetheless, I am praying for this final month and a half that things go well. I pray that my 1st class in my final year is still at hand and that my final year will continue to progress smoothly as it is at the moment, I hope. 

So yea a couple of jogs around Hyde park really opens up my mind to think about my work on my FYP. Just hoping that Dr. H isn't pulling my leg when he says he's happy with progress. 

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

Follow your heart or go with the Flow

It's been sometime since my last post coz of exams. But thoughts on careers, growing up etc never cease to deliberately "Take Control" of my day especially when I just really need that extra focus on my studies. Zzz.....

So as the date draws closer, it bothers me to think that I have not made the best use of my time here. Well ideally from the eyes of the 3rd person, the epitome of success after completing studies overseas is to of course OBTAIN a job overseas and perhaps settle there or come back home after 2-3 years of experience.

What most people do not know about is the journey towards getting a job here in the UK. It is to no surprise and I myself AM a victim this stereotype. 

So let's go over a couple of key criteria's in which people hope or intend to achieve by gaining occupation here in the UK:

(1) Highly skilled professionals would most certainly find a greater avenue of opportunity here. Life sciences for example is a highly valued skill here and the government highly funds this area of research unlike back home. So there is no doubt skilled professionals would find greater solace by ensuring themselves a better opportunity of growth knowing that there is a ladder for them to climb. 

(2) The $. Yes $ is perhaps the most enticing of rewards (considering the conversion rate) but truth to be told, is $ really worth the toil and labour? It may be overly naive of me to say this but will a back-office support role bring you far in a year or 2 knowing that all you are after is the 5X after conversion salary increase? Ever thought of what's left after income tax, council tax, RENT and other necessities here in the city? More on this later.

(3) Experience. True it is a one off get it now or probably never get the chance ever again to work here in the UK.

Personally I have no reason to side with point (1). Having diversified my skillset (and also bluntly de-emphasized my depth of expertise), I have chose to embark on more corporate roles within the telecommunications industry. 

So why not here in the UK you may ask? Well let's perform a bit of a checklist. I am specifically looking at management associate programmes or roles within product management/strategy. OK lets look at the MA programmes. From my search, only Vodafone is offering such a programme. The catch? You'd had to be a UK/EU citizen. That's right people. Like the majority of firms (affecting mainly the more technically inclined industries to say the least) there is no incentive in hiring a foreign talent. This would just mean extra cost, extra formality and most importantly....... this would not address the local unemployment situation. Yea it's probably one of the strategies employed by the government to address the unemployment rate especially in the recent year on. First they took away the post-study work visa and now that limits UK companies to hire local graduates and only be allowed to hire a foreign graduate if they have exhausted their efforts to source a local hire. I can't comment on how effective this has been but from experience, I have been receiving rejections all year long and it seems to apply to my peers (bar the exceptional few who had internships last year or the really really really golden 1 or 2 individuals who secured consultancy or IB jobs). As for the other telco's here, they're pretty technical based and managerial roles are limited for experienced hires. 

So what about the money? If you're earning at least 3000 pounds a month in London then yes you're off to a pretty comfortable life. Unfortunately the average salary for a fresh graduate in the UK is approximately 22000 pounds per-annum. That's about 1800 pounds a month. The basic income tax rate for the lowest salary bracket is 20%. So that leaves around 1500 pounds? So I'm paying 600 pounds a month for a ROOM. That's right a room. So let's say you're able to source a cheaper place to stay. Say 500 pounds a month. Let's put in 100 pounds worth of bills so that makes up 600 pounds. That leaves you 900 pounds. Lets deduct 100 worth of transport costs. So 800 purely for food and expenses. I may have sparsely approximated the facts and vaguely assumed very little from so much.

 But I'm still thinking that working in the UK isn't as pretty as it seems. More importantly, happiness. There isn't just nothing like home. Most will disagree with me and say that I'm too pampered and that I have just shut these doors without even taking a peek to see what's behind them. Well that's true to some extent but what if I was just held back by other factors which just put locks on those doors? No one has ever thought of the fact if it would be hard to secure job opportunities having repeated a year of studies? Well to the few firms which put me through to interviews I am very thankful and it is my fault to have not made it past the recruitment. It is all part of the learning process and all I am hoping for is to learn for my next undertaking. But the rates have been lowered considering my grades. "Please send us your latest examination transcripts". The dreaded phrase which I have no intention of expecting even at this point of my examination. Well from experience, I practically receive rejections the next day after submitting my transcripts. Yea the ugly truth but not many will understand. 

So I dare say that the main issue here is with perceptions. Most people think: You're spent the time and $ studying abroad. You should stay abroad. Personally I have this perception that EVERYONE in Oxbridge must be the brainy top scorers. I was probably right until the UKEC recruitment stages. I met this girl in one of the AC's. Lets refer to her as L. I've met L before in Imperial back in November through a friend. She was invited for an interview with company M which I really wanted and wasn't aware that they invited candidates for interviews. Unfortunately I never got any invitations from them and that really put me off a little but it motivated me to approach them personally :P Anyways, L received the invitation and I was really impressed. She struct me as a very brainy person and perhaps were among the top percentile in her course.

I met L once again in March and yes I still had the same perception. Intimidating in a way since we were more or less competing for opportunities in the same pool. A couple of days later it appears that L did not get through the assessments. I bumped into her a day later after the final interview rounds and we chilled a bit over lunch. So we talked about our so called "search for the dream career" goals etc and ended up spilling about my rumble through with my experience here at Imperial. Somehow the conversation developed  into a less cheerful situation where she started to err.... tear up. She was very frustrated that she never got any offers from the fair. I tried consoling her by saying that her Oxbridge degree is an award enough to place you anywhere upon graduation. AND it was her turn to spill the beans. She was on a second lower and L says that she totally understands my feelings about being deemed an 'ugly grape' because of our pasts. 

That conversation by itself made my whole day worthwhile. It made me realize that even great people screw up and it is through such experiences that we realize the more important meanings in life. In addition, it also made me think more on another person's perspective and to not put perceptions directly into judgement. Everyone has a story to tell so let us lend an ear. People have their reasons and lets not live our lives chasing another person's shadow. For the 3rd person saying "Man if I had the opportunity like you I would ensure that I would be working in the UK". So here's the question back to you, 

"So what are you doing standing here and not making an effort to get there instead?"

Remember that there are always 2 sides to a coin ad you might only know what's on one side. Try flipping it over and you'd find a greater meaning by itself.

Until next time ;)

Thursday, 5 April 2012

A time go give and take

Decision; Influence; Constraints; Uncertainty

These are a couple of factors which I tend to overlook yet speculate upon especially at times when I really don't need to! Frustrating yet crucial. 

I have mentioned before that my goal was to build my career in the telecomms/mobile technology industry with hopes to shape this industry in the future. That is my ultimate career aspiration period. 

But why is it that I lost track of this goal? Did I forget? No! Did I just lost interest? NO!!

It was due to several factors:

PERCEPTION: I had the perception that it was all techy stuff which shaped the industry. IT IS NOT! It is true to say that people may build the largest boat with this being on the the greatest feat of mankind. But what use is this boat if it was never used in the first place? What use of it if no one ever knew or was unable to use it at all? 

I see this the same way in the telecomms industry. We serve not only to give you the best technology, but also to ensure we do it in the best way possible and in the most creative yet novel manner you could ever imagine. 

So what happened along the way? I was weak in the technical discipline. I lost focus and perhaps it also skewed my career aspirations. I seeked alternatives which I never considered before. Yes I would agree this is a form of which an individual grows and develop. Well this happened to me and I started looking into management consultancy. The incident which sparked this was the talk by Accenture back in 2009. I sat in for the company presentation and I was astonished by the contribution of a corporate firm not only in the corporate world but more importantly in the telecomms industry. Food for thought at that point. Adding to that, Mr. Stockley (Entrepreneurship fellow) inspired me by telling us that consultancy is a channel to open more doors. So that was a very compelling factor that I COULD find what I am passionate about then.

I started looking into consultancy jobs for the next 2 years. The result? I have failed in every single case interview. I felt as if I wasn't fully equipped. My mind was not tweaked to fully accept this method of critical thinking which is crucial for all consultants no matter his field of interest. In a sense, I was INADEQUATE. I believe all I can do for now it so practice and practice but the doors have seemingly shut itself or rather....... I have allowed the doors to shut. Bummer T.T

On a brighter note, I soon realized my long term goals (concurrently to say the least). Even if I stepped into the world of consultancy, I would want to see myself contributing in the telecomms industry as an end game. So the question is...... WHY not just do it from the start? And I have gotten my answer. 

To the ME in a few years down the road. Did you realize your dreams? Or did you let your dreams manifest YOU instead?

Nevertheless, I am very grateful for the opportunity with blue-green. I have heard that it is a really awesome programme and I am truly looking forward to it. Adding to that, the people are just astoundingly fantastic! These are the people who have made such a great impact in my life within just a short time frame. I am truly thankful for this opportunity by itself.

Time to hit the books for the final show down.

Until next time ;)

Monday, 2 April 2012

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

There is a saying that passion overcomes all obstacles. And I am a believer.

The past couple of days has by far been the most memorable and cherish-able moments of my entire life period. Here's just me throwing a couple of keywords to recap the whole experience:

(1) The PEOPLE: I've met some of the worlds most extraordinary individuals. Yea they were great achievers, highly capable and most importantly, they loved what they did for a living and that is something I admire most. 

(2) ACCEPTANCE: There are some who touched me on the inside; the people who accepted me as an individual. No lies, no acts, just pure old me and I have never felt this feeling for a long long time. It just softens me up on the inside and I have learnt to that I don't need a shard of prickly spines protecting me. I have learnt to open up.

(3) CONFIDENCE: It is true when they say the only way to learn to carry yourself better is through sheer hard experience. In the past couple of days, I have never pushed myself so hard, to think, to be confident and to influence. More importantly the need for coalitions which blossomed into friendship at the end of the day. 


(4) IMPERFECTION: I have learnt to realize or perhaps a little self realization that behind every success lies a certain degree of imperfection. It took me awhile to realize this today but I started to comprehend both as an individual and to consider the adversity of a situation similar to what I have gone through. Sh1t happens to me and everyone else too. 

Overall, it was an awesome awesome few days. The UKEC career fair was awesome^20. It made all this possible and reminding me of my goals once more. Focus, appreciate and NEVER go astray. 


Until next time ;)

Thursday, 29 March 2012

The Bigger few of the Big ones


Small time period for lots to happen~

Quite a bit has been going on in the past couple of days. For a start, I've been rejected by pwc. lolz. Kinda expected from the outcome of the case interview. Ah well. Like what mom and dad says, it's just not meant to be. Citi isn't replying me at all. Screwed. Deloitte just sent me their version of a 'rejection' as well. Sigh. So that's 3 down the drain.


On the bright side, ACN has put me through to the final stage of the assessments. Case interview and yes one for the road. Will be giving it my best. Also lined up = interview with Sunway and Proton. Still on the wait for Maybank. 

Well big big big day tomorrow. Interview with the big Blue in the morning and Blue-Green assessment center in the afternoon. Sure hope I'll be alert and proactive throughout the day. Might come home for a bit to get some rest and freshen up. 

Oh man the nerves. Put logic aside and make the impossible possible.

Until next time ;)

Thursday, 22 March 2012

Final few days of Undergrad

What a week!

It's Thursday! Wait ok it's technically Friday now which means...... its the last day of Spring term! 2 more lectures to go and 1 SES report to submit hopefully by Saturday evening or Sunday. Yosh!

I spent the whole nite last night finishing up my background report. Well its not compulsory but I guess it'd make a good impression since my other supervisor has probably not much of an idea on what I've been up to since we've only met twice in Autumn term and not even once this term. Busy busy man so I understand. I managed to get my draft ready at 4.30am. lolz. Good thing my meeting was at 4pm the next day so I slept in and continued touching up in the morning. Or should I say in the afternoon :P

Dr. Herrero seems pretty pleased with my report (or at least I think so) and as usual he pointed out one of my really silly errors which I seem to commit ever so often. Zzz..... Other than that we had a casual chat and that was it! That's that for this term.

Headed to the EEE labs to finish up my report and received my Marketing presentation mark. 'A' all the way baby!!!!!! Take that Imperial business school students! Really glad with how things turned out and most importantly, I'm glad I was the one standing in front giving the presentation on behalf of my team. Something I've always wanted to do at least once for a business module in Imperial and I've done it. 

Spent the evening finishing up the report and immediately sent it off to my 2 supervisors. Surprisingly my other supervisor replied within a short period of time. I guess he's still working at his desk at 7pm. Says that he's pleased with the progress of the project. Great stuff. Well worth the effort even if this report counts for nothing :P

Yeap that's that for the 2nd last day. Another day 2mrw and hoping for it to be a really productive one. Chao outside!

Until next time ;)

Oh btw.... goodbye pwc. Screwed. lol